…lost...

Have you ever felt lost? No, not literally lost…. trust me, I know what that feels like. The type of lost were well you're not really sure whats going on in your life. Well, I think thats where I am right now. I'm lost. I don't really know how to explain it.  Its like crossing the street with a blindfold on or driving through an endless tunnel (oh lord, that doesn't sound like fun) but then at the same time its not.

             I think what it is, and this is just my thinking, is I feel like I'm lacking direction. I know that may not make sense but to me it does.  I guess I've been questioning my character lately, Is this who I want to be? Where am I going to be in ten years because of my actions today? Am I going to like it and am I going to like me? How can I make my life and others lives better now? What about ten years from now?………. So maybe I've just been acting like a three year old and just questioning…. but I              think my questions are pretty valid!

           Now to solve the problem…. HA! Thats easier said then done…. What I've decide to do (and oh do I hope it helps) is to work on my grace (I'm beginning to think that's another thing I lack). I'm going to be that person who values others over herself ALL OF THE TIME (because lets be honest, we all know only one or two people who do). I'm going to love others and show them with my actions. I'm going to try to kill people with kindness. I'm going to try to get my life together. I'm going to make time for others but also make time for me, because Gandhi once said "There is more to life then increasing its speed." So I'm going to relax, relaxation can only mean a happier Paige right? I'm also going to take time out of everyday to reflect on my day and my actions. How did you handle your day? Was it with grace?

I'm also going to try to blog more…. I know, I know, its about time… yeah yeah yeah. You try being me.

Well… hopefully this works…. and just remember to watch out for those everyday miracles. Until next time.